Operation MMLM

It’s an acronym for something I can’t quite say yet.

HOWEVER!

Something good has happened to me, something unstable, but good.  Which is why MMLM is in motion, it is why I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO GET TO A NORMAL SIZE.

From now on, I will be blogging daily.  Measurements will be posted every. single. day.

Starting, today!

Measurements:

Chest: 38

Waist: 34 3/4

Hips: 48

Gut: 44     <—-isn’t that gross?!?  Yuckers!

Anyhoo, this shit WILL BE DONE!

This is gonna suck.

So I’ve not been to the gym for a week and a half because A) I threw my back out.  B) My membership ran out, and didn’t have funds to go.

Whiny excuses I know!  And, I even made it to the 20 lbs mark.  I lost 20 lbs.  I was actually pert near 30 lbs until I gained some back when I stopped gymming it up.  And started eating horribly.  It’s going to change again.  I just tend to go through this.  Do really good, then slip, then do really good, then slip.  It’s a vicious cycle.

I am planning on going again, so no worries.  I just gotta make myself do it.  It’ll be fine.  It’s gonna suck and hurt, but it’ll be fine.  I’m building a resistance to the pain.  Woohoo.

OH, another reason why I’ve not blogged in SO long is because my computer had a virus and a friend of mine had to wipe everything off of it and reinstall junk.  So, I had to wait like 2 weeks for him to actually get it and fix it lol.

Anyhoo, that’s all for now.  I promise I will post more often! And what did I say if I disappeared again?  You guys were suppose to email me!  Tsk tsk.

I. Will. Not. Quit.

Warning:  This post is image heavy.  (Pun)

So, here’s the thing. I’m aware that I’ve not written on here in like, FOREVER. I’m aware that I weigh 3.6 pounds more than when I last wrote. And yes, I am cognitively aware that I look absolutely ridiculous in these teeny tiny shorty shorts that I’ve been wearing to bed, and sometimes around the house. Because my massive ass is consuming them! HAVE NO FEAR! I think I need to stop boohooing over crap and do something. I need to start going to the gym again. I need to start eating healthier and STOP drinking so much pop.

I AM going to lose weight and I AM going to be hot! No ifs, ands, or fat asses about it!

And now here is a compiled list of photos to help me “achieve” what I want. I understand that these aren’t very realistic, and I understand that they are airbrushed and photoshopped and crap, but dammit, I like the way it looks and if I want to aspire to look like that, who’s stopping me?

I want her hips

She used to be smoking...

I really want legs like these

To be able to wear thigh high socks

So yeah, just a few pictures to keep me motivated.

I CAN look like this, and eventually, I will!

If there is one thing that I love about my whole “Woman scorned” attitude is this, I’ll show you…you’ll be sorry…Pretty soon, you’re going to be the one kicking yourself.

I’m quitting WoW (World of Warcraft for those of you not in the know) and I’m going to use that money for my gym membership.  I’m going to take my adipex as directed and I’m going to be so freaking hot, you aren’t gonna know what hit you!

I realize that this is a process, and here is what I propose.  If you see me slacking off again, just send me a reminder.  Say, “Hey, you haven’t posted an update in a while.  Are you still going to the gym?  Have you lost any weight?  Have you slipped in your eating habits?”  Yeah, so it’ll send me a notice in my personal email and I’ll be FORCED to read it…cus that’s how I roll.

So, here are my body shots.  Forgive me of the toilet but it’s the only place in the house with a full length mirror.

Pretty sure my leg isn't suppose to look like it's bending INWARD

She's the one, the only one, built like an amazon...

Indy I love you, but you make me fat!

So I had the great pleasure of having Saturday and Sunday off, so I thought that I would go see my bestest friends in Indy and stay the weekend!  And I absolutely cannot take it!  So much good food all around me!  Doesn’t help that my friends work at Joe’s Crab shack so we get 50% off.  So, yeah thus far, I have eaten out every single night.  

Friday-  Met Ashley and Cassie at Cheeseburger in Paradise and got a Bleu cheese burger which was SO good!

Saturday- Ordered pizza for lunch and then later went to eat at Joe’s Crab shack, I got this AMAZING surf n turf burger with onion strings.  And THEN we went to iHop before going out.  I got 2 eggs, and pancakes and something like potato bits.  

Also, regarding ihop, I can never go back there again  Only reason is because I went over there at like a quarter to 5 AM and asked this guy who works there out.  It was so stupid because I asked if he had a girlfriend and he was like, kind of, sort of.  And I was like, “So, asking you to do something tomorrow would be out of the question then?”  And he said that he had to work.  So I was Ok cool and left.

Also, I went shopping, for a “Party” outfit.  Which I got because Cassie works at Lane Bryant so I got some REALLY cute jeans that fit ME, like ACTUALLY fits me.  And this gorgeous secretary top.  My gosh, I loved it!  OH I also got a shirt from Joe’s.  

One Shell of a Good Time!

Stupid macbook, mirrored image.  Anyhoo, now we’re about to go out to eat yay!  AGAIN!

 

Peace lovers!

Wait for me!!

Man I hate playing catch-up!

Alright, so I started the gym again!  I’m really excited to be going again!

Today my work out consisted of 15 minutes of walking on the treadmill, stretch, another 15 minutes of walking.  Elliptical for 15 minutes.  And then and intermitten run/walk for 20.

I felt so AWESOME to be running!  Especially on my first day back.  But I tell you what, I just had a really good song going that kind of gave me a burst of adrenaline during the chorus.  (All American Rejects-Gives you hell).

So here’s the update, you ready?  Who wants to take a vote?

Wha…what?!  I ONLY gained 2.2 lbs in ALL that time that I ate like crap and did NOTHING?!  ROCK ON!

Seriously, I ate like crap, and was pretty much sedentary for a month..ish?  I guess it’s all about how much you eat, and how you use that energy huh?

OH!  Here’s a new thing that I’m going to start trying to do.  I’m going to make video blogs!  Won’t that be cool?  I’ll just set up a new pages called “Video” or something and just update now and then on the videos!

Ok, I should get to bed.  I’m planning on going to the gym before work, which means I’ll be there around 6 AM.  OH LORD!

So tired. Want sleep.

I know I didn’t update last night! And this post probably isn’t going to be long. Sort of an explanation. I’m REALLY tired. I’ve been working a lot, plus my brother is home from PA so I’ve spent a lot of time with him. And going back and forth from my sister’s (where he’s staying at) to home. Not to mention the staying up late, and then doing the gym thing. Ugh, the gym thing. I hate you so much.

Even though it makes me feel totally stellar as I’m working out, the after effects SUCK!

Take today for example. I was feeling SOO sluggish and I just didn’t want to do anything. I managed to do 6 miles on the bike, and then I was like that’s IT I’m done! But then I started walking on the treadmill. And then I started to run at different intervals. And then I started dancing as I walked. Don’t ask me how to dance while you walk, you just kind of have to go with it. Even though there were people with me, I didn’t care. I needed to MOVE. So I just danced my little heart out. And I felt AMAZING. Now, I just want to curl up and hit some Z’s! Maybe I will. I hate working morning shifts. But alas, I have to!

Oh before I forget, here’s the picture I took last night.

Yay me!

Alright, hitting the hay.  I hope everyone is having lovely days!

Also, goal for next week is 3 lbs.  AWW YEAH!

Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend

UPDATE TIME!!!!!!

It’s time for the big reveal!

I did it!

Sorry about the poor quality, I took it with my camera phone, and then edited the lighting in Picasa.  But HAH SUCK IT!

Goal for next Sunday….2 lbs!  Apparently 5 lbs was too much so yeah. ON TO THE POST!

So, luckily for me I got sick on Christmas Eve.  We’ve had this nasty stomach virus going around and I got it.  So everything I had before that made me feel like a cow, I threw up.  So yay.  But it was really terrible.

I’ve joined a gym and have been going for approximately 3 days.  I like working out, it gives me a sense of worth.

Also, in preparation for tonight I’ve put together a list of foods I will no longer allow myself to have. And they are the following:

• Hot pockets
• Corndogs
• Tater tots
• Pizza Rolls
• Dr. Pepper
• Red Bull
• Honey Buns
• Pop Tarts
• Wendy’s
• McDonald’s
• Chocolate
• Cake
• 12″ BMT Subs
• Italian Sausage
• Pringles
• ComplEATS
• Ravioli
• Beefaroni
• Gas Station Pizza
• Taco Bell
• Star Bucks
• Edna’s
• Chili
• Gushers
• M&M’s
• Mountain Dew
• Mexican Restaurant

Pretty extensive huh?

Here’s a list of foods I WILL allow myself to eat.

• Turkey &  Ham sandwich
• Water
• Lean Cuisines
• Cheerios
• Apple Sauce

So yeah, quite a difference.  I’m sure that as this goes on I will get used to not eating as much, and will be comfortable to eat those foods again (only some though!) without feeling like I’m undoing everything.

So that is all!  Be sure to check in and read my mid-week blog.  Because next week I’m gonna be weighing 230lbs and there’s nothin you can do about it OH!

And so begins the journey

Hello world!

I’ve decided that it’s time I do something about my little “weight problem”.  And this blog isn’t necessarily what’s going to help me do it, but hopefully will keep me in check!

I’m 21 years old and I feel like I’m 40.  I’m overweight and that may be the reason why I don’t want to go out and party.  This is based on a purely superficial basis of “I want to look hot!”  Yeah everyone says that you should lose weight to be healthy, but honestly?  I don’t much like myself, so why would I care if my body was healthy?  And for all you nay-sayers out there spouting off that “Even if you do get fit, that’s not going to make you happy if you don’t like yourself”, shove off.  I don’t like myself because I let myself get this way.  I blamed a lot of things on why I gained so much weight.  My parents divorce, my sister’s friend, George Bush–the truth of the matter is, I did this to me.  No one else.

Now, let’s get down to facts here.

My current weight (I’m ballparking it) is 237 lbs.  According to the BMI calculator I’m going to have to lose 100 lbs to be considered “healthy”.  And me losing 100 lbs is just silly!  Eventually that would be a nice target goal but I think I’m going to be doing a weekly blog and set a goal of something like 5 lbs a week?  Does that seem reasonable?  Oh who asked you anyway?

So, as of next Sunday I shall weigh 232 lbs.  Just watch me baby!

I’m thinking of joining a gym, though I’m afraid that I’d die of embarrassment if people saw me run on a treadmill, so we’ll have to see how that goes.

Also, I think I’ll do a mid-week blog just to check in and let you know how it’s going.

Ta-ta dearies!