Mooooo cow!

So, I lied.  I haven’t been upkeeping this blog very well.  Don’t ask me why because I don’t know.  I have no reason other than pure laziness.

Here’s some things you’ve missed while I’ve been away.

1. I have gained 5 lbs since August
2. I haven’t been to the gym since August
3. Operation MMLM will NOT be undergone (?)
4. I’m a jack-tard

Ok, so one fine day in August I went to the gym early in the morning and worked out REALLY REALLY hard.  I ran a lot and just kicked MAJOR ass.  I was so proud of myself.  Then I walked to work!  A coworker of mine asked me if I wanted to go walking after work and I said YEAH!  I mean, come on, another chance to get my sweat on?  I was really starting to enjoy working out.

Unfortunately it came to a pretty quick halt.  I got off work an hour before my coworker and so I waited for her around the store.  While waiting for her I noticed a suspicious looking kid with a pack of lighters.  He was probably about 15 or 16, certainly not old enough to be buying lighters.  So, I started following him.  My friend spotted him in an aisle and motioned that he didn’t have the lighters.  As he was heading toward the door I stopped him and questioned about the lighters.  He said he laid them down somewhere, and I told him that he needed to show me where.

He lead us toward the back and stopped, grabbed his phone and started pretending like someone was on the other end saying that someone was hurt and he was like, “Oh my god.  Is she ok?!”  And tried to walk off.  My friend stopped him and told him that he needed to tell us where the lighters were or she would call the police.  So he confessed that they were in his pocket.  I told her to go ahead and call the cops which is a standard procedure so we can get a “No Trespass Order” placed against them.   The kid tried to leave but I stepped in his way.  Then he charged into me, knocking me to the tile floor on my knee, and took off running.  I was shortly behind him.  I knew I wasn’t going to catch him, but I wanted to see which direction he was headed.

Well, nothing really came of it.  They arrested the kid and I found out that he’s had MULTIPLE assault charges on cops, and theft warrants.  They arrested him a month later and he was back out on the streets the next day.

Welllllll him knocking me to ground ended my gym career for a while.  I landed on my knee on the hard tile floor and it really messed it up.  I couldn’t go up steps without nearly bursting into tears.  And it’s only until now that it hasn’t bothered me.  So, almost 3 months now.  It still gives me problems when I’m driving or if I sleep funny.

As far as the gaining of 5 lbs, yeah that’s due to some baaaaad choices on my part.  Because I wasn’t excercising I wasn’t eating right either.  My bad.

Operation MMLM?  Don’t worry, it’s nothing.  I was seeing this guy named “M” but it fizzled out pretty quickly.

Anyhoo, I’m going to start going to the gym again here REALLY soon!  I simply cannot wait!

Oh, side note.  I do have to wait until I get a new MP3 player because some asshat stole my zen stone and my phone.  I got my phone back but not my stone   It’s ok, it wasn’t that expensive and all of my music’s on my computer…at least most of it anyway.  I can’t run without music!

This will be edited

at a later time

I just wanted to write this small note real quick before bed to let you guys know that I went to Women of Faith this weekend and had an AMAZING weekend!  I met Lisa Welchel (Blair Warner from The Facts of Life) and she’s just so sweet!

Lisa Welchel and Me!

More pics to come later!

Update Pictures

I tried to use the same clothes and poses

Front View

Left side view

Right side view

Sorry about the poor quality, I didn’t really mess with the flash setting.  And also, sorry about my toilet being in view

Measurements to come tomorrow!

And here’s a side by side from 2 months ago and today.  It’s not much but it’s coming along!

PROGRESS!

Can someone move this wall?

So, I’ve only been excercising for a week and already I’m feeling that “This is boring.  I don’t want to do this anymore.  My legs hurt.”  attitude come on.  It all started on Wednesday morning.  I was at the gym doing my usual thing:  Elliptical, then stretch, then walk/run on the treadmill.  Well there was a pretty attractive, fit looking guy also doing the elliptical, which didn’t bother me.  After I finished I started on the treadmill.  Walked and then ran, and then walked, and then ran, you know how it goes.  The guy gets off the elliptical and goes on the treadmill.  I’m thinking, “Okay, that’s cool…he has the same routine as me.”  Once he’s on the treadmill, he goes to 8.5 speed and runs, and didn’t stop.

That made me feel like I wasn’t doing enough.  I realize that I’m progressing toward being able to run 8.5 speed without stopping, but the fact that I can’t do it NOW really pisses me off.  So I stopped the treadmill and went back on the elliptical.  I actually had to FORCE myself to do it for 10 minutes.  Each minute seemed longer than the next.

So when I went back yesterday I, again, didn’t want to be there.  I knew that I needed to but I didn’t put as much effort into it as I normally do.  I still sweat through my shirt, but I didn’t think it was enough.

And it really didn’t help my esteem much when I weighed myself and say that I had GAINED weight.  At least 5 lbs!  I was furious and confused.  I measured myself, and no change.  So I pretty much felt like a BIG, FAT, FAILURE.

Until today, however.  I decided that I needed a break from sweating and pushing myself hard.  So I decided to swim.  I’m really glad I did.  As much as I love to feel sweat pour from my face, I really loved being in the pool alone more.

And it gets better.  I weighed myself when I got home today before my shower.  Yup, I dropped 6 lbs since last night!

Also, a quick sidenote

My best friend Thomas is home for the summer and he’s been going to the gym with me.  Well a couple of people at the library, where he works, have decided we should have our own little “Biggest Loser” competition.  We have a spreadsheet with our names on it, and for 8 weeks we are going to write down our weight.  And every week we put in 2 dollars and whoever loses the most wins the money!

So there ya go.  That’s a bit of an update

Avoiding sleep…again

• Hot pockets
• Corndogs
• Tater tots
• Pizza Rolls
• Dr. Pepper
• Red Bull
• Honey Buns
• Pop Tarts
• Wendy’s
• McDonald’s
• Chocolate
• Cake
• 12″ BMT Subs
• Italian Sausage
• Pringles
• ComplEATS
• Ravioli
• Beefaroni
• Gas Station Pizza
• Taco Bell
• Star Bucks
• Edna’s
• Chili
• Gushers
• M&M’s
• Mountain Dew
• Mexican Restaurant

…wow.

Insomnia fat-cat

Hello!  I know that it’s been like forever since I’ve updated this, and for that I sincerely apologize.  You see, I don’t know what the hell is goin on but I have nothing new to really talk about.  Diet/weightloss wise I mean.

However you are in luck!  Because I do have some newness going on.

The other night at work I thought I was having a stroke and/or going blind.  You see, I had just come back from my break and when I did I noticed that my peripheral vision was nothing but BLURS.  Almost static-like.  It terrified me.  As did the possibilities of 3 things.  Thing 1:  I thought I was going blind.  Thing 2:  I thought I was having a stroke.  And thing 3:  I feared I had diabetes.  My mother had called me and we talked about it, and she thought my blood sugar was messed up.  SOOO I made an appointment with my doctor and thankfully none of those things are it!  Turns out, it was probably just a migraine.  It made sense because I DID have a headache.

Anyway, enough of that stuff.  On to more nonesense!  I am suffering from insomnia.  For no reason whatsoever I feel the need to NOT go to sleep.  I feel really tired, even now, and I want to go to sleep but I refuse to.  I don’t know why.  I’ve done this since childhood, only now it’s becoming ridiculous.  I end up taking naps in the middle of the day, or after work, and I’ll be out until 9 or 10 PM and then the cycle perpetuates itself.

It is currently 12:30 AM here in Indiana and I have no plans to sleep.

ALSO you may notice that I haven’t updated my scale pics for quite some time.  The reason?  Because I gained a lot of weight back.  I haven’t been sticking to my diet, and I’ve not been exercising.  And in fact, I’m pretty sure I ate EVERYTHING ON MY GOODBYE MY LOVER LIST!!!!  Not all at once of course.

Ugh, this is soooo hard!  I need to get serious about this again.  And what’s worse is that my friend’s ex keeps asking me about it!  He keeps asking me if I had a good work out and I lie and say yeah!  He’s a runner, and that’s all cool and stuff, but damn if I just can’t get motivated to do ANYTHING.  Not to mention that I’m now constantly tired from staying up all the time.

I could take some sleeping pills in order to go to sleep at a reasonable time, but the problem in that is taking the pills.  I’ll be like, “If I take the pills at 9 I’ll end up asleep around 10 or 10:30 and that’s WAY too early to be in bed!”  It’s like I have things to do that inhibit me from sleeping.  You know what it was tonight?  I deleted a bunch of dumb pictures off my hard drive.  Yes, THAT is what’s more important than sleep.

ALSO, quick question that revolves around beauty.  Ladies, don’t be embarassed to tell me this.  Do you have a moustache?  Like, I have a moustache.  It’s gross, and I hate it.  However, I don’t know what to do about it.  It isn’t so obvious on top, but at the sides, it’s there…I don’t know what I should do.  Should I get some cream?  Shave it?  Pluck it?  I dunno…it’s gross.  What do you do?  Maybe I should have a beauty page?  I dunno.  I’m just throwing things out there.  I’m also typing like a mile a minute, so if this blog doesn’t make sense then it’s not my fault.  It’s the lack of sleep.  Oh look, pretty unicorns in leotards and dancing rainbows! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

No one ever texts me, or calls me.  Isn’t that sad?  I mean, I used to not be able to LIVE without my phone and now I just don’t even care.  Get this.  Out of 450 anytime minutes, I’ve used 38.  Out of 1500 texts I’ve used 467.  Isn’t that sad?!  38 minutes.  When Paul and I were together we could EASILY surpass 3000 minutes a WEEK!  Oh god, I just saw something even more sad.  The lifetime calls on my phone is 87 hours.  87 hours!  I’ve had this phone for nearly a year and only 87 hours.  Look at your phone’s lifetime calls, see how many hours you have!  I’m 21 and I have virtually no social life.  Blah!

Ok, sleep is now setting in, and I’m probably going to lie in bed and draw, or write a letter.  Anything to NOT go to sleep!  Have fun dearies!

A possible new incentive?

I think that it’s great that people are exercising to do charity events, like Someday is Today is going to bike for diabetes.  I, however, have chosen a much more selfish reason for my weightloss and excercise regime.

You see, in October, it is quite, very really, totally possible that I may be going to Italy!  My mother is from Sicily and her family is still over there, family I haven’t seen for 19 years!  And lately I’ve been feeling a little bored with Indiana.  Ok that’s a lie, I feel TRAPPED!  Like, I may actually DIE here!  And that is NOT what I want!  So I’ve looked online and thought about joing the “Peace Corps” or even having my church sponsor me in a Missions Trip to the Czech Republic.  Then today I thought, why not just go to Italy and see my family?!  PERFECT!  It’s a perfect excuse to get out of the country and see things I wouldn’t likely be forgetting any time soon!  So, I texted my mom and asked her what she thought!  She said she’d go with me, which would be nice since I don’t speak Italian, but I kind of wanted to do this on my own too.  So we compromised, she’d come and spend a week with me and her family (I wouldn’t want to take that from her) and I would come home later at the end of the month!

HELLOOO new incentive!  I have GOT to be in shape when I go to Italy because A) I don’t want my family whom I’ve not seen for 19 years to think I’m a lard ass and B) HELLOOO HOT ITALIAN BOYS!!!

Good thing about being single, a multitude of possibilities!  Maybe I’ll find a gorgeous dark haired, dark skinned Italian boy to love while I’m over there?  I’ll bring him home with me, and all the American girls will go ga-ga over his charming and sexy accent.  And then me and Fernando (Yes, I’ve already named him) will get married and have equally gorgeous, dark haired, dark skinned Italian babies!

Hey!  A girl can DREAM, right?!

I’m still alive, and still fat

Alright, so here’s the thing.  I’ve not updated or anything for a while.  And here’s the reason why.  I haven’t done anything!

I thought about making a blog and just tell you guys about how crazy busy I am and how I’ve not had anytime to go to the gym or make healthy choices, and stuff like that.  But the truth is, I just didn’t want to.

My dad and stepmom went to California a few weeks ago and I’ve been alone at the house, so I’ve been lazy.  And then this week my membership at the gym ran out and I haven’t had the funds to get renew it.  It’s like 30 bucks but honestly, I just have not had the money.  So, here’s what I’m hoping, after I go to Pennsylvania, I’m going to sign up and start going again.

As for life, it’s been good.  My best friend is leaving in a few days for France so I’m really excited/sad to see him go.  I’ve been spending most of my time with him.  Also, craziness, it snowed like a bunch here!  We almost had a foot of snow hit us, if it didn’t rain and ice it probably would have been a foot, but luckily for us it’s only really 8 inches.  OH also, I’m fashioning a new playlist for when I rejoin the gym.  These are just some songs that I’m thinking about downloading from www.amazon.com which is where I download most of my songs because it’s safe and cheap.  I’m not going to riddle my computer with spyware trying to get songs for free.  So here we go!

1. Comfort Eagle-Cake
2. Instant Pleasure-Rufus Wainwright
3. She’s Losing It-Belle and Sebastian

Ok, so I only have 3 songs, but still come on.  If anyone has anything else that I should add, let me know because it would be greatly appreciated!

Also, I bought Firefly on DVD today YAY!  And I may just watch that tonight!  Everyone have a great night!

Dining Out Healthy

Alright, so here’s the thing.  I miss real food.  Don’t get me wrong, Lean Cuisines and tangerines are good and all.  But I miss having the option of going out to eat.  SOOO…I experimented.

I went to a chinese buffet restaurant before I went to the gym.  And I think I did SPECTACULAR!

Starting out, I was like “Should I get a salad first?  I don’t really like salad…plus they probably don’t have any healthy dressing.  Screw the salad!”  And then I got what I usually get, only smaller portions.

Most of the time when I went out to eat I would pile a bunch of food on my plate and eat, then go back.  Not this time, oh no!  This time, I did little portions of things I wanted.  No more than what the serving spoon fit.  I used the serving spoon like a measuring cup, no double scooping, and if I grabbed too much, put it down and try again!

Along with my food, I drank LOTS and LOTS of water.  1 1/4 of a glass per plate so I drank 2 1/2 glasses altogether.  I was so full I couldn’t even finish my second plate.  I admit that I didn’t get the healthiest things because, come on, I’ve lived 15 + years as a foodie and habits are hard to break!  So like when I got the cheesey crab casserole thing, I ate around the cheese.  When I got the bacon wrapped crab I peeled the bacon off (I don’t like it with bacon anyway) And when I got the general tso’s chicken, I drained as much sauce as I could off of it.

And again, LOTS of water.  I thought I was going to puke by the time I got to the gym.  And I realized that I haven’t really been talking about what I do at the gym.  So here’s what I did today!  I got on the bike and the bike they have has a feature where you can race this dot, so I raced the dot for 3 miles.  I totally won!  Then I stopped and stretched my legs, and whatnot.  Then, got BACK on the bike and raced the dot for another 3 miles.  Kicked that dot’s ass I did!  Then, I stretched a little more, and finally I walked for about 15 minutes.  I love going to the gym, it makes me feel awesome afterward!

Tomorrow I have a Dr.’s appointment and I’m going to ask him some questions about weight loss and eating right and whatnot.  So, if you guys have any questions that you think would be important to ask, leave a comment because I’m not too sure what to ask him!

See you guys in a few days!

How could I be so stupid?

Just a quick mid-week update.

I should have known how hard t his was going to be.  I chose to get fit like 4 days to Christmas, duh.  That’s like the ULTIMATE pig-out holiday aside from Halloween!

Because everywhere you go people are bringing food for their little “Christmas parties” and “Holiday Fiestas” and they want you to eat so they don’t have to take it home and clean it up.

Anyway, I realized that I was really dumb yesterday when we had our Christmas party at work.  I over ate and in turn felt like a cow.

Oh yeah, so here are some ideas I’ve been having about this blog thing.  Every week that I weigh myself, I’ll post a picture of the scale on here.  It’s digital so I don’t think that there is a way to cheat but if I find one out…yeah.

ALSO.  And this is uber important!  If for whatever reason I don’t meet my weightloss goal for the week, I will let you punish me ala Vlogbrothers.  No one is allowed to say “Kill yourself”  or “Cut your face off and feed it to a small asian man with back pains”  Just something silly and stupid to keep me motivated.

So, yeah.  Enjoy the day, and if I don’t blog before then, Merry Christmas!

…Or Happy Hanukkah!

…or Merry Kwanza

…Or ya know…Happy Merry Nothing.