Dear Excercising reader…

I hate you!

Not really, but that’s really annoying.  I only say that because I’m jealous.  I wish I could read and jog, or use the pre-core at the same time but I can’t.

Anyway.  Just a small update.  I’ve lost another couple of pounds.  I am currently at 221 lbs.  So yay!

How was everyone’s weekend?  Mine was great and fun-filled.  My friend broke my finger as we were playing tether ball so that was awesome.

Yeah, sorry this is so short everyone.  Lack of real typing abilities with this splint on.  Just wanted to do a quick update.  Love you all!

Can someone move this wall?

So, I’ve only been excercising for a week and already I’m feeling that “This is boring.  I don’t want to do this anymore.  My legs hurt.”  attitude come on.  It all started on Wednesday morning.  I was at the gym doing my usual thing:  Elliptical, then stretch, then walk/run on the treadmill.  Well there was a pretty attractive, fit looking guy also doing the elliptical, which didn’t bother me.  After I finished I started on the treadmill.  Walked and then ran, and then walked, and then ran, you know how it goes.  The guy gets off the elliptical and goes on the treadmill.  I’m thinking, “Okay, that’s cool…he has the same routine as me.”  Once he’s on the treadmill, he goes to 8.5 speed and runs, and didn’t stop.

That made me feel like I wasn’t doing enough.  I realize that I’m progressing toward being able to run 8.5 speed without stopping, but the fact that I can’t do it NOW really pisses me off.  So I stopped the treadmill and went back on the elliptical.  I actually had to FORCE myself to do it for 10 minutes.  Each minute seemed longer than the next.

So when I went back yesterday I, again, didn’t want to be there.  I knew that I needed to but I didn’t put as much effort into it as I normally do.  I still sweat through my shirt, but I didn’t think it was enough.

And it really didn’t help my esteem much when I weighed myself and say that I had GAINED weight.  At least 5 lbs!  I was furious and confused.  I measured myself, and no change.  So I pretty much felt like a BIG, FAT, FAILURE.

Until today, however.  I decided that I needed a break from sweating and pushing myself hard.  So I decided to swim.  I’m really glad I did.  As much as I love to feel sweat pour from my face, I really loved being in the pool alone more.

And it gets better.  I weighed myself when I got home today before my shower.  Yup, I dropped 6 lbs since last night!

Also, a quick sidenote

My best friend Thomas is home for the summer and he’s been going to the gym with me.  Well a couple of people at the library, where he works, have decided we should have our own little “Biggest Loser” competition.  We have a spreadsheet with our names on it, and for 8 weeks we are going to write down our weight.  And every week we put in 2 dollars and whoever loses the most wins the money!

So there ya go.  That’s a bit of an update

Relay for Life Event!

I swear to everything holy I lost like 20 lbs from the Relay for Life event!  Not just from walking around the track all night, but also from dancing.  I am a dancing machine.

For those of you who don’t know what Relay for Life is, it’s a campaign designed by the American Cancer Society to celebrate the survivors of cancer, remember the ones who lost their lives to cancer, and fighting back to find a cure for cancer.  Relay for Life teams try raise money, and at the end there’s a big event where the Teams compete in themed laps.

Well anyway, this was my first year on Relay and I had so much fun!  Nevermind the fact that I had just gotten a wisdom tooth ripped from my skull earlier that morning, I was excited!  I walked a lot but only competed in 2 themed laps, “The 50’s” and “Revenge of the Nerds”.  In order to get points you have to have a lot of enthusiasm and dance and just have fun with it!  And I’ll admit, I had too much fun with the Revenge of the Nerds lap

My 50's outfit

My hair is in a teeny tiny beehive.  It wasn’t good conditions to be doing a beehive.  The air was hot and wet, and my hair was going limp and dead.  Luckily Tara kicked it up for me.  She rocked so hard!  I got 3rd in this lap!

The pollen was really playing with my allergies

My sister and I

I did have my pants rolled up, but they kept falling down.  And that skirt was just so dang short!  But hey, WE GOT FIRST PLACE!!!!

It was so much fun, and I am SO worn out.  Staying up all night, and walking and just dancing and being silly.  It’s darn exhausting!  But I loved it!

I. Will. Not. Quit.

Warning:  This post is image heavy.  (Pun)

So, here’s the thing. I’m aware that I’ve not written on here in like, FOREVER. I’m aware that I weigh 3.6 pounds more than when I last wrote. And yes, I am cognitively aware that I look absolutely ridiculous in these teeny tiny shorty shorts that I’ve been wearing to bed, and sometimes around the house. Because my massive ass is consuming them! HAVE NO FEAR! I think I need to stop boohooing over crap and do something. I need to start going to the gym again. I need to start eating healthier and STOP drinking so much pop.

I AM going to lose weight and I AM going to be hot! No ifs, ands, or fat asses about it!

And now here is a compiled list of photos to help me “achieve” what I want. I understand that these aren’t very realistic, and I understand that they are airbrushed and photoshopped and crap, but dammit, I like the way it looks and if I want to aspire to look like that, who’s stopping me?

I want her hips

She used to be smoking...

I really want legs like these

To be able to wear thigh high socks

So yeah, just a few pictures to keep me motivated.

I CAN look like this, and eventually, I will!

If there is one thing that I love about my whole “Woman scorned” attitude is this, I’ll show you…you’ll be sorry…Pretty soon, you’re going to be the one kicking yourself.

I’m quitting WoW (World of Warcraft for those of you not in the know) and I’m going to use that money for my gym membership.  I’m going to take my adipex as directed and I’m going to be so freaking hot, you aren’t gonna know what hit you!

I realize that this is a process, and here is what I propose.  If you see me slacking off again, just send me a reminder.  Say, “Hey, you haven’t posted an update in a while.  Are you still going to the gym?  Have you lost any weight?  Have you slipped in your eating habits?”  Yeah, so it’ll send me a notice in my personal email and I’ll be FORCED to read it…cus that’s how I roll.

So, here are my body shots.  Forgive me of the toilet but it’s the only place in the house with a full length mirror.

Pretty sure my leg isn't suppose to look like it's bending INWARD

She's the one, the only one, built like an amazon...