Avoiding sleep…again

• Hot pockets
• Corndogs
• Tater tots
• Pizza Rolls
• Dr. Pepper
• Red Bull
• Honey Buns
• Pop Tarts
• Wendy’s
• McDonald’s
• Chocolate
• Cake
• 12″ BMT Subs
• Italian Sausage
• Pringles
• ComplEATS
• Ravioli
• Beefaroni
• Gas Station Pizza
• Taco Bell
• Star Bucks
• Edna’s
• Chili
• Gushers
• M&M’s
• Mountain Dew
• Mexican Restaurant

…wow.

Insomnia fat-cat

Hello!  I know that it’s been like forever since I’ve updated this, and for that I sincerely apologize.  You see, I don’t know what the hell is goin on but I have nothing new to really talk about.  Diet/weightloss wise I mean.

However you are in luck!  Because I do have some newness going on.

The other night at work I thought I was having a stroke and/or going blind.  You see, I had just come back from my break and when I did I noticed that my peripheral vision was nothing but BLURS.  Almost static-like.  It terrified me.  As did the possibilities of 3 things.  Thing 1:  I thought I was going blind.  Thing 2:  I thought I was having a stroke.  And thing 3:  I feared I had diabetes.  My mother had called me and we talked about it, and she thought my blood sugar was messed up.  SOOO I made an appointment with my doctor and thankfully none of those things are it!  Turns out, it was probably just a migraine.  It made sense because I DID have a headache.

Anyway, enough of that stuff.  On to more nonesense!  I am suffering from insomnia.  For no reason whatsoever I feel the need to NOT go to sleep.  I feel really tired, even now, and I want to go to sleep but I refuse to.  I don’t know why.  I’ve done this since childhood, only now it’s becoming ridiculous.  I end up taking naps in the middle of the day, or after work, and I’ll be out until 9 or 10 PM and then the cycle perpetuates itself.

It is currently 12:30 AM here in Indiana and I have no plans to sleep.

ALSO you may notice that I haven’t updated my scale pics for quite some time.  The reason?  Because I gained a lot of weight back.  I haven’t been sticking to my diet, and I’ve not been exercising.  And in fact, I’m pretty sure I ate EVERYTHING ON MY GOODBYE MY LOVER LIST!!!!  Not all at once of course.

Ugh, this is soooo hard!  I need to get serious about this again.  And what’s worse is that my friend’s ex keeps asking me about it!  He keeps asking me if I had a good work out and I lie and say yeah!  He’s a runner, and that’s all cool and stuff, but damn if I just can’t get motivated to do ANYTHING.  Not to mention that I’m now constantly tired from staying up all the time.

I could take some sleeping pills in order to go to sleep at a reasonable time, but the problem in that is taking the pills.  I’ll be like, “If I take the pills at 9 I’ll end up asleep around 10 or 10:30 and that’s WAY too early to be in bed!”  It’s like I have things to do that inhibit me from sleeping.  You know what it was tonight?  I deleted a bunch of dumb pictures off my hard drive.  Yes, THAT is what’s more important than sleep.

ALSO, quick question that revolves around beauty.  Ladies, don’t be embarassed to tell me this.  Do you have a moustache?  Like, I have a moustache.  It’s gross, and I hate it.  However, I don’t know what to do about it.  It isn’t so obvious on top, but at the sides, it’s there…I don’t know what I should do.  Should I get some cream?  Shave it?  Pluck it?  I dunno…it’s gross.  What do you do?  Maybe I should have a beauty page?  I dunno.  I’m just throwing things out there.  I’m also typing like a mile a minute, so if this blog doesn’t make sense then it’s not my fault.  It’s the lack of sleep.  Oh look, pretty unicorns in leotards and dancing rainbows! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

No one ever texts me, or calls me.  Isn’t that sad?  I mean, I used to not be able to LIVE without my phone and now I just don’t even care.  Get this.  Out of 450 anytime minutes, I’ve used 38.  Out of 1500 texts I’ve used 467.  Isn’t that sad?!  38 minutes.  When Paul and I were together we could EASILY surpass 3000 minutes a WEEK!  Oh god, I just saw something even more sad.  The lifetime calls on my phone is 87 hours.  87 hours!  I’ve had this phone for nearly a year and only 87 hours.  Look at your phone’s lifetime calls, see how many hours you have!  I’m 21 and I have virtually no social life.  Blah!

Ok, sleep is now setting in, and I’m probably going to lie in bed and draw, or write a letter.  Anything to NOT go to sleep!  Have fun dearies!

Quick sidenote!

I’ve made a new link called “Vlogs” I’ll alert you when new videos are posted. Check out the link for a “Test” vlog!

A possible new incentive?

I think that it’s great that people are exercising to do charity events, like Someday is Today is going to bike for diabetes.  I, however, have chosen a much more selfish reason for my weightloss and excercise regime.

You see, in October, it is quite, very really, totally possible that I may be going to Italy!  My mother is from Sicily and her family is still over there, family I haven’t seen for 19 years!  And lately I’ve been feeling a little bored with Indiana.  Ok that’s a lie, I feel TRAPPED!  Like, I may actually DIE here!  And that is NOT what I want!  So I’ve looked online and thought about joing the “Peace Corps” or even having my church sponsor me in a Missions Trip to the Czech Republic.  Then today I thought, why not just go to Italy and see my family?!  PERFECT!  It’s a perfect excuse to get out of the country and see things I wouldn’t likely be forgetting any time soon!  So, I texted my mom and asked her what she thought!  She said she’d go with me, which would be nice since I don’t speak Italian, but I kind of wanted to do this on my own too.  So we compromised, she’d come and spend a week with me and her family (I wouldn’t want to take that from her) and I would come home later at the end of the month!

HELLOOO new incentive!  I have GOT to be in shape when I go to Italy because A) I don’t want my family whom I’ve not seen for 19 years to think I’m a lard ass and B) HELLOOO HOT ITALIAN BOYS!!!

Good thing about being single, a multitude of possibilities!  Maybe I’ll find a gorgeous dark haired, dark skinned Italian boy to love while I’m over there?  I’ll bring him home with me, and all the American girls will go ga-ga over his charming and sexy accent.  And then me and Fernando (Yes, I’ve already named him) will get married and have equally gorgeous, dark haired, dark skinned Italian babies!

Hey!  A girl can DREAM, right?!

Indy I love you, but you make me fat!

So I had the great pleasure of having Saturday and Sunday off, so I thought that I would go see my bestest friends in Indy and stay the weekend!  And I absolutely cannot take it!  So much good food all around me!  Doesn’t help that my friends work at Joe’s Crab shack so we get 50% off.  So, yeah thus far, I have eaten out every single night.  

Friday-  Met Ashley and Cassie at Cheeseburger in Paradise and got a Bleu cheese burger which was SO good!

Saturday- Ordered pizza for lunch and then later went to eat at Joe’s Crab shack, I got this AMAZING surf n turf burger with onion strings.  And THEN we went to iHop before going out.  I got 2 eggs, and pancakes and something like potato bits.  

Also, regarding ihop, I can never go back there again  Only reason is because I went over there at like a quarter to 5 AM and asked this guy who works there out.  It was so stupid because I asked if he had a girlfriend and he was like, kind of, sort of.  And I was like, “So, asking you to do something tomorrow would be out of the question then?”  And he said that he had to work.  So I was Ok cool and left.

Also, I went shopping, for a “Party” outfit.  Which I got because Cassie works at Lane Bryant so I got some REALLY cute jeans that fit ME, like ACTUALLY fits me.  And this gorgeous secretary top.  My gosh, I loved it!  OH I also got a shirt from Joe’s.  

One Shell of a Good Time!

Stupid macbook, mirrored image.  Anyhoo, now we’re about to go out to eat yay!  AGAIN!

 

Peace lovers!